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I Am Back...

2005-04-05T01:12:00.000-07:00

Back Again... Blogging... After much persuasion from my new Lao Pa(Duncan CCC)... Really naggy... Ha...ha... Sorry about that...

Anyway, went to Mac and study today, with a friend of mine... Well, met him from a mutual friend of mine... Guess he is really sweet and nice... Today was really bad due to that song of mine, can't even complete my studies properly and cried... Hai~!!!... Why are you so emotional girl?? Its over... Stop thinking about him... STOP!!!... STOP!!!... STOP!!!...

Well, that friend of mine, he is really sweet... Follow me along the way at the expense of his time... Really feel bad of it... Just don't know how to repay him back... Guess all he say is he is a willing party... Today too, not feeling well, and he support me along the way... Why Why Why?? Some people can be so nice to me, while the others are not... Maybe I am just selfish... Plus, he have problems himself, yet he is willing to listen to mine... Never to treat me so well, if not I will fall for you... Just so much I wanted to tell him, yet I am not willing too... Why Why Why??

Always asking myself, am I a flirt?? Do people like me deserve to be love?? Are we really worth the time of others?? Sometimes, I just feel bad... I know that he is just romantic, yet I am still willing... Why Why Why?? Why are you so dumb??

Guess pouring out my feelings here is the best way to relieve my stress and strain that is on me... A place that is only read, and not spoken... Thank you Lao Pa... Guess I own you one...

Sadness...

2004-11-28T12:21:00.000-08:00

Finally... I am writing again... After almost one week... Did not have the time... The reason? Will be revealed at the bottom...

After 3 years and almost 5 months, my wonderful maid has left... The other news is, my family is not hiring a maid anymore... Therefore, you can imagine all the housework I have to do(Of course my family too)... Well, without a maid, is also a good thing... After all, we save a lot by not hiring a maid... Pros and cons...

When she left, sadness feel that air... After all, she was a very good girl... She did not mess around, do the chores, keep the house clean, and learn English to communicate with the family... She also always listen to my grumble whenever I am troubled or sad... She was a very good girl, my mum always say... It is a pity that she left... However, we have all grown up, a maid will not be necessary anymore... Thinking back, we have altogether 9 maids... It started when I was borned... Therefore, for my 17 years, there was always a maid to help me and take care of me... Now, it is time for me to be independent and take care of the house myself... Anyway, my family is actually very lucky... All the maid was good, except for 1... That bad egg was sack after 3 months after she was impatient with me(That time I was a kid)... Anyway, pictures of my maid will be posted(After I finished fixing my hello)...

Well, on wednesday, went to become a cupid... Help to bring flowers and puzzle to my friend... However, things don't turn out well... Hai~!!! Don't wish to say anything... Just hope that everything will turn out fine with him...

Selamat Hari Raya Puasa

2004-11-21T00:53:00.000-08:00

Yoz... I am blogging again... Suddenly so frequent right... What a rare sight of seeing me doing that... Anyway, BoiBoi is Back!!! Ha...ha... So happy... Feeling quite sad at first de... As something happen to my beloved friend, however seeing his face lit up my face... Wahaha... Went to Swensen with him to have dinner... Waited for him for quite a while, as finally he is late, and don't laugh ok, I am early... Ha...ha... Whatever... Ah_ma now in high spirit, even though I am tired... Anyway, after blogging, me go to my wonderful spring bed and ZzZz...

Well, on my way to Causeway Point(where I met BoiBoi), saw a big group of Malays boarding the Mrt... They all seem to be relatives, however one thing that can be differentiate that they come from different family are their clothes... Each member of the family will wear the same colour... For example, a family they will all wear yellow, the other family will wear green... I do not know is that an important customs in the Malays, but their first impression was unity in the family... Somehow it is unique in some ways, as I don't see it in other races... When it comes to Chinese New Year, most of all is that we don't wear black, mostly we don't wear the same clothes... Maybe, Chinese should adopt such a way...

Anyway, what does Hari Raya really means... Being a Singaporean for 17 years, finally out of curiousity, I ask my maid... I think mostly in everybody's mind(non-malays I mean), Hari Raya is like Chinese New Year, giving out hong paos(red packets), visiting families, have dinner or lunch tomorrow, etc... However, the real meaning of Hari Raya Puasa is actually forgiveness... What mistakes you have done in that year, Hari Raya Puasa is the day where you repend all your mistakes to all your family members and friends, and ask them for forgiveness... It is actually a meaningful day... As a Chinese, I don't see we have any such festival... Mostly I think, getting the hong pao is more important, or gossiping on how your children is coping... Maybe, we should really learn something from the Malays... Even though to them is a religion, but it is a good example set to all people...

Well, even though their is no such festival(in Chinese or Indians), we should learn not only that day to repend ourselves, but to do it always once a mistake it done... Forgiveness is something that everybody should learn too... Like this, a world will become a better place....

(Smell of the bed... TEMPTING...) Got to go...

Missing You...

2004-11-18T22:45:00.000-08:00

Well, feel like writing today... Nothing else better to do... Been slacking too much... Ha...ha... Busy in the day, slack in the night... What a life style eh... Anyway, miss you today... Ha...ha... Never felt such a way for quite a while... Always when someone went overseas, the eager of missing someone is very small, however this time, the eager is great... Suddenly, when working around the streets with my friend(Erik), I just hope the person beside me is you... Crazy right... Ha...ha... Of course, my friend hope that the me is somebody else... Anyway, good luck to you my Er Zi... Don't think so much and spoil your mood... Be your best that day...

Anyway, took a lame quiz... Ha...ha... Take a look... Ha...ha...

Mum's Birthday & Back From Holiday...

2004-11-18T01:06:00.000-08:00

Anyway, just came back from Kuala Lumper(Just in case you don't know, it is in Malaysia)... Went with my parents since both of them are so "ON" to go there... As usual, nothing much to do over there, just walk and shop... Nothing to buy also... Came back with just a few clothings and a soft toy for BoiBoi... Instead of going there to buy some branded stuff, the unbranded is more cheaper... The branded stuff is actually more expensive than those in Singapore(Can you IMAGINE!!)... Anyway, stay at the Crown Princesses, a really horrible hotel... They don't have standard settings for the necessity of the room... My room have toothbrush and paste whereas my brother's room don't have... Ha...ha... Plus, the shower head have problem... My brother's room have no hot water, and mine, not strong enough... Can you IMAGINE again, that it is a FIVE STAR HOTEL!!!... Well, came back... Back to the comfort of my own home... Ha...ha... There are some pictures taken of the place, once it is send to my comp, I will post here...

10th & 11th November
10th of November, is my mum's birthday... Of course this important day, must show our appreciation, I and my brother brought a Durian(Her favourite) ice-cream cake for her(Yoz... Still owe me money, better pay me back)... Then like the usual, in the evening, went to eat Tony Romas together... I order the usual ribs... Still feel that it still taste the best...

Then the next day, Deepavali, went up to my aunty house to celebrate my Mum's birthday... The usual, they go there play mahjong, then the kids just slack around and sleep... Ha...ha... After that, went to this Punggol Seafood Restaurant to eat... It was really economical... We have to walk to our destination... Ha...ha... Therefore, by the time we walk there, we are all starving... Ha...ha... Anyway, ordered rice, mee goreng, etc... Not forgetting, the pepper crab(However, can't take a photograph of it)... Here are some of the pictures taken there... Mostly my family member... Ha...ha... Anyway, Happy Selamat Hari Raya for all the Malays... Ha...ha..

Menu...

The Leftover... Ha...ha...

My cousin... (Yan Ling)

My 5th & 7th Aunt...

My Biao Jie & Her Mum...

My Uncle...

My 4th Aunt..

My Jiu Mu...

Of course... My WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL MUM!!!

Reflections...

2004-11-09T16:52:00.000-08:00

Yoz... Here I am... Back again to blog... Its been almost two weeks I guess that I have blog... Have to blame this stupid blogger, for creating so many problems... However, looks find again, therefore, better take this opportunity to blog...

Reflections
Well, forgotten which day... Did a stupid thing with Boiboi... Met him for dinner... After that, he keep on saying that he wanted the Adidas top so much, that we actually rush down all the way to Orchard Paragon, jay walk across the Orchard Road with so many cars, ran along the crowded street, hop the escalator, and to our luck, the shop is still open... Finally, brought the shirt... Ha...ha... Crazy act that day...

Finally also, the exams are over... I think the paper that I have the most confident will be Apchem, follow by the CPPA... The MIP, memorise so many thing, in the end, also all forget... Too many junks to memorise, in the end, forgotten all, don't know what to write... Well, wish me luck... Just hope that I don't have to repeat any module...

Anyway, must thank Bernard and Ben for teaching me... If not for them, I also will not be able to do the recycling process... Thank you very much... Also apologise to you guys especially to Isaac... Did not mean to put you guys in an awkward situation... Did not mean to blow temper to you guys... Hope you all understand... Thanks for all your support also... Plus Boiboi, for being so understanding...

Yesterday, went down to sqs to teach band... Not many juniors were there... However, see a vast improvement... Now, they are able to play through the comp piece... I believe they have practice hard enough to make the music listenable... At least, can hear all the parts clearly... Now is just the balance and cleaniness... Keep up the good work guys... You are all doing a great job... Plus, the set piece by Jocab De Hann is also nice... Managable... However, definitely show some difficulty... Keep up with the hardwork ok... Next year, the gold will still be yours... Put up your best effort... Love you band...

Well, thats all... Nothing to write anyway... Ha...ha... Anyway, please fill in some comments on my chatterbox... It is so quiet... Ha...ha...

The Number of Tissues That I Have Used When I Have Flu...

Two Basket...

A Sigh Of Relieve...

2004-10-24T02:24:00.000-07:00

At last, I can finally create a normal post... Blogspot has some stupid problems which do not allow me to blog properly... Therefore, sorry for the delay guys...

Finally, can heave a sigh of relieve... Worried about Boiboi till I can't sleep well last night... Having a bad flu, eaten medicine yet, all don't seems to work... Can't sleep till 4+... Woke up in time to prepare myself... Went down to the same place(Yuhua Mac) to MUG... Just study and study, drown myself with work... Try not to think so much...

At around 9+, he message me... Wow... Can breathe easily... He seems fine, at least physically... Can finally lay down my head and rest for one day(Phew)... However, emotionally unstable still remains... Just don't know what to do to tell him or console him... Maybe, I am just not a good problem solver, so should say, the "Couldn't Be Bothered" character has been build in me... (Happen when I quarrel with my brother over the computer... Suddenly feel myself really couldn't be bothered even when it is my personnal thing... Useless bugger... [Smack mine lian!!])

Well, talk to his ex-gf... Talking to her, makes me feel very small... She seems to understand him from head to toe... Whereas, I am still caught in the middle of no where, still trying to figure out... Maybe the difference of time that she has been in a relationship with him and me in a relationship with him(Me, two months, she, three years)... Or maybe, the difference in character... Whatever it is, good to hear advices from her... Notes taken... I will remember them(My very best with STM memory)... Still, time is there, if the relationship is mean to last long, then I will sure get to find out about him myself... Now, just stuck in the middle, confused, stunned, shocked and hurt... Four in one...

Don't wish to talk about it anymore... The flu is getting worst... Got to go and rest... Anyway, someone having the same blog address and nick as me... What a coincidence... Ha...ha... Save her address at my blog, go and take a look... Ha...ha...

Friendship, a friend or foe?

2004-10-20T00:01:00.000-07:00

Friendship, a gift given to every person in the world... No matter how lonely you can be, you still have a friend stand by you, to support you and care for you... Thats what friends are for bab...

However, friendship have many criteria, and I always believe there is three... The three most important key to maintain a friendship, Trust, Understanding & Compromise... Which are also the most difficult to fulfill... I am lucky enough to meet up with buddies who have fulfill the three main criteria, and also proud of myself, for maintaining that three key too...

However, not many people are fortunate like me...Friendship is like Love... There is give in and take out... Some people give in a lot, while the other partner take out more, vise versa... However, should friendship be weigh? I am not sure myself... Maybe, it is true that everything has its value, friendship too... Like dollar and coins, everything has a price tag...

Trust, Understanding & Compromise are the heaviest prices in Friendship... If one falls, all will fall together... They are interlink... Thats why the price is heavy for each one... No one is perfect, thats why the three comes in... Maybe now the three is being interchangeable with my buddies, thats why our friendship is always happy and enjoyable... However, if one key falls, then everything will be different... Just hope that it will never happen, and still remain at this moment...

Friendship, complex yet simple... What is really is? I am not sure myself... At this very moment, it is still a friend to me, but at the next, it maybe a foe... But then, treasure it... As it will bring you happiness and lessons that you will never learn in a textbook...

Forgive

2004-10-14T03:18:00.000-07:00

Forgive the sun who didn't shine
The sky had asked her in to dine

Forgive the starts that heard your wish
The moon prepared their favourite dish

Forgive the rain for its attack
The clouds have tears they can't hold back

Don't hate the birds' cause they are free
Don't envy all the things they see

Don't block the wind, but hear its cry
Or else that wind may pass you by

Forgive the storm it means no harm
Could not resist to show its charm

Forgive the earth that never turns
Don't hate the sun, because too much burns

Life intends to not cause pain
The flowers bloom from all the rain

The storm will come and it will pass
The sun that shines, it will grow the grass

The wind it cannot help but cry
The stars at night light up the sky

Forgive the world in which we live
We'll all find peace if we forgive

Danielle Rosenblatt

To someone I Love...

Beautiful Day...

2004-10-10T01:25:00.000-07:00

Well, guys and girls, I am back... Feel like blogging after so many days of misery... Feeling better le... Thanks for everyone's support and encouragement, I tell you so, I will climb back up...

Well, today again, have SQS alumini band practice... Ha...ha... Went to have breaky with Siew Ling and Tong Tong... Guess who is the "earliest"? Wu Meiyi lah... Who else... Ha...ha... Both me and Siew Ling have porridge then after that wanted to leave, but then drizzling, waited for a while then leave...

Well, went today, the band size was smaller than last week(thats what i heard)... Anyway, my section only me and Eddie at first... Then after that, everybody starts coming down, in the end, trombone full force... However, not enough trombone, then in the end, play eupho loh... Ha...ha... Obviously cannot make it... Part time players only mah... Ha...ha... However, really enjoy, as the whole section is down, keep on chatting till we get scolded by Mr Er...

Anyway, as band ended, went to Yao Zhong house to do puzzle loh... All three chit-chat, lame here and there, having lots of fun... Always they two gang up and bully me... Hai~!!!, what to do, lost the skill(bitching) le... Ha...ha... After that, leave at 6.45 like that, then me and Siew Ling split with Yao Zhong, he go his West Wind, we go have dinner...

At dinner, chit chat again loh... Mostly about people around us(Can't tell you all much, if not you all bash me up)... Then went back home... Not sure of what bus to take, then ask Siew Ling, then tell me wrong bus no. to take... Then in the end, travel to Bukit Timah, but luckily there is a direct bus back home for me... Took 154, and walk back home... "It is ok girl... Ha...ha..." "mUaCkS"!!!...

Really enjoy myself today... Ha...ha... Hope the aluminis enjoy themselves... Looking forward to the next band practice... See you again...

The Two Roads

2004-10-09T01:11:00.000-07:00

There was a path
Deep in the woods.
Once it forked-
The bad, the good.

I chose to take
The left-hand path,
I did not know
I had no map.

Now this road that I travel
Is dirty and battered.
It's littered with dreams
That are broken and tattered.

Paved with wrongdoings
And dotted with hearts,
That were taken from people
And just torn apart.

Pain and regret
Are common here
wherever you turn,
They're always near.

I want to cross
To the other path,
And leave behind
This painful wrath.

I thought I was forever
doomed to walk.
And all the gates
were tightly locked.

But as I continued,
A footbridge I could see.
A Bridge of Hope
called out to me.

Slowly I crossed
to the path of good.
Finally I was on the path
Of which I thought I
should.

Now hidden deep
Within the woods.
The one that forked;
Paths bad and good.

I once was wrong,
But now I'm right.
And before me
Glowing a guiding light.

Altered by
A little step.
So close to falling
In darkened depths.

But I was finally
Pulled to hope.
I found that footbridge,
And learned to cope.

My simple mistake
Following the crowd.
Ignoring the heart
That speaks so loud.

The choices you make
Can change your life.
One will bring happiness,
The other bringd strife.

Following the crowd,
Won't lead you to right.
If you follow your heart,
You'll be guided by light.

There was a path,
Deep in the woods.
Once it forked-
The bad, the good.

Heed my warning,
Because I know.
Follow your heart-
You know where to go.

Whitney Welch

Please Hear What I'm Not Saying

2004-10-07T23:30:00.000-07:00

Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear.
For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature to me,
but don't be fooled.
For God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.
But don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface
is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion and fear and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.

I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being
exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
My only hope, and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
I don't like to hide.
I don't like to play superficial phony game.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me,
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the bland stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.

Each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you really care,
my heart begins to grow wings, very small wings,
very feeble wings,
but wings!
With your power to touch into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.

Who am I, you may wonder.
I am someone you know very well.
For I am every man you meet,
and I am every woman you meet.

Jill Zevallos-Solak

Today is Sharon's birthday

♪ĦãρρŸ ßĩŕŢĥÐáў Ťō Ўòũ♪
♪ĦãρρŸ ßĩŕŢĥÐáў Ťō Ўòũ♪
♪ĦãρρŸ ßĩŕŢĥÐáў Ťō S.H.A.R.O.N♪
♪ĦãρρŸ ßĩŕŢĥÐáў Ťō Ўòũ♪

Inspirations

2004-10-06T23:09:00.000-07:00

Courage is the discovery that you may not win.
and trying when you know you can lose.

Honor is standing for what you believe-
not for what you know.

Life isn't about living without problems.
Life is about solving problems.

If you plow the field every day-
the only thing that grows is resentment.

Compassion is passion with a heart.

The only thing in the whole universe people need to
control are their attitudes.

How a person wins and loses is much more important
than how much a person wins and loses.

If you only do what you know you can do-
you can never do very much.

There are no failures-
just experiences and your reactions to them.

Getting what you want is not nearly as important
as giving what you have.

Going of a journey with a map requires following
directions-
going on a journey without one requires following
your heart.

Talent without humility is wasted.

If you don't want it bad enough to risk losing it-
you don't want it bad enough.

When life knocks you down you have two choices-
stay down or get up.

Tom Krause

Today is Nicholas's birthday

♪ĦãρρŸ ßĩŕŢĥÐáў Ťō Ўòũ♪
♪ĦãρρŸ ßĩŕŢĥÐáў Ťō Ўòũ♪
♪ĦãρρŸ ßĩŕŢĥÐáў Ťō M.I.C.K.E.Y. M.O.U.S.E.♪
♪ĦãρρŸ ßĩŕŢĥÐáў Ťō Ўòũ♪

♪~♫~寂寞的男人~♫~♪

2004-10-02T03:11:00.000-07:00

Just hear this song, very touching... It is one of my family's favourite singer... Being out in the music scene for so many years, still the King of Chinese Pop still stands strong... Even though the music is cantonese, it is very soothing and lots of meaning... Nice and simple...

繁忙的工作加一把劲来过渡
无聊的交际祇管把笑容制造
回家打开一副电脑
模拟找到模拟倾诉模拟很好
从来不知道怎么竟各行各路
从前的一套今天仔细仍照做
夜深粉紫色这外套
模拟起舞模拟拥抱模拟得到

仍然能拥有梦想跟前途
仍然能拥有自尊跟自豪
仍然明知许多女伴一转身会遇到
为何感到这不算最好
明明从不信天荒跟地老
明明从不会后悔得不到
明明从新掌握去做我总可以做到
为何今晚我不懂如何告别烦恼

浮华掌声里祇想一个人赞慕
从难关出发心境可向谁透露
是否悲欢早有定数
何时得到何时失去谁能猜到

寂寞的男人 by Jackie Cheung...

Slack... Slack... Slack... (Part 2)

2004-09-28T02:37:00.000-07:00

Ha...ha... As per promise, movie reviews again... By your wonderful naggy ah ma... Ha..ha... Well, no school today, therefore all the way I just slack and slack... When out to meet with "Dar Dar" to take the jigsaw from him... Promise to help him to do since he was so busy... Other than that, met with Isaac, he pass me the CRS project, complete it in 4 hours... Ha...ha... As chatting with Boi Boi on the phone with all his lame jokes...
As per promise, the movie review of "The Ghost"...

"The Ghost"
A Korean movie... For the main characters, I am not sure who are they... I did not seen them before... Anyway, at the starting of the movie, four girls were playing a game inviting a spirit back... As they were asking about the details of the spirit, the spirit came back for revenge... After that invitation, they forgotten to send the spirit back home... Then the sister of one of the girls died... And lots of mysterious and deaths occurred after that...
The main character of the movie, the girl, knows this sister, yet, she has lost her memory... Therefore, she has no impression of the girl... However, she keeps seeing "things"... When finally one of her old friends come back and find her, tell her about she herself see "things"... After which, the girl herself died... This alerts the main character and a series of scary incidents occurred...

Overall, it is just another typical ghost movie... Not really scary, instead, quite boring at times... However, at least it is better than "The Ring"... It overalls has a story line, but as a person like me who don't like scary movie, watching this does not give me any goosebumps... You can say it is ultimately, no scare... To rate, it gets two out of five popcorn... You can consider if you have nothing else to watch...

While writing this blog, I was hearing one of Jay Chou's song... Even though I am not a fan of chinese music, my brother always plays his songs... This is one of them which I find it quite pleasant to the ear... Well, got to go... Byebye... Good night...

七里香

窗外的麻雀在电线杆上多嘴
你说这一句很有夏天的感觉
手中的铅笔在纸上来来回回
我用几行字形容你是我的谁
秋刀鱼的滋味猫跟你都想了解
初恋的香味就这样被我们寻回
那温暖的阳光像刚摘的鲜艳草莓
你说你舍不得吃掉这一种感觉
雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水
院子落叶跟我的思念厚厚一叠
几句是非也无法将我的热情冷却
你出现在我诗的每一页
雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水
窗台蝴蝶像诗里纷飞的美丽章节
我接著写把永远爱你写进诗的结尾
你是我唯一想要的了解
那饱满的稻穗幸福了这个季节
而你的脸颊像田里熟透的蕃茄
你突然对我说七里香的名字很美
我此刻却只想亲吻你倔强的嘴

"七里香" by Jay Chou...

Slack... Slack... Slack...

2004-09-27T01:16:00.000-07:00

Ha...ha... Finally Sunday is here, a day which I can finally take a good rest and rejuvenate my strength for the next week... Ha...ha... Even though next week is not tough too...

Anyway, nothing much these weekdays... Just normal school days as ever... Have a test on friday... Studied too much on thursday night, couldn't get out of bed the next day... As I slept at 4 the night before... Ha...ha... Just studied and did not look at the time... Really crazy eh... Ha...ha... Well, but the test was not too tough... Luckily I studied, if not, I didn't think I would be able to do the test well... Feel a sense of relieved, as my answers tally with my classmates... Well, tally did not mean it is right, but at least, I feel that I am on the safe side...

As for many years of waiting, finally, the alumini band is form... On Saturday was the first day of the alumini band practice... Suppose to wake up at 6.30 to meet my "Dar Dar" and "Dear Dear" for breakfast at 8... However, as usual, I was late... Woke up at 7, brushed and washed up, 7.40... In the end, I was late for 35 minutes(8.35)... Ha...ha... We talked and lame again... The usual for all three of us... After that, we walked back to school... Entered the bandroom, and saw that everyone was just sitting there, chatting here and there... Surprised to see Mr Er, thought he had to teach band... However, in the end, it was Mr Neo who needs to teach band... What a switch...
Anyway, not many people turned up for the alumini band... Expected it... After all, it was the first practice... Nice to see back all the older generation players... Those who graduated before I entered SQS... My section like Peixin and Yiming, they all came back... It was the first time I met Peixin, but, she told me that she met me before at one of the Spiritoso Concert... Just have no impression of her except WeiLing and Yong An... Why Yong An is not coming back, he is just so good-looking... LOLZ...
First practice, sight-readed some songs... Most of them were not really difficult... Mainly was to let those who had forgotten how to play to catch up with their playing... Enjoy myself... After all, talked to Peixin... Catch up with things with her... Was surprised that she also took DCP... What a coincidence...

Talking about coincidence, met my ex today... Ha...ha... Really very funny... Was talking and laughing with my brother... When my brother recognised him, and told me that CC was walking down... He also saw me... We waved... Ha...ha... Message him, found out that he was just shopping around the place with his family... Whereas, My family came down specially to buy the mooncake... Da Tong mooncake... It taste great... Recommended by my whole family, so your should try it... After buying the mooncake, went down to Tiong Bahru to catch the Jackie Chan movie with my family...

"The New Police Story"
Jackie's long-awaiting movie is here... The main characters in the movie, Jackie himself, the beautiful Charlie Young, Nicholas Tse, Daniel Wu as the bad guy... Storyline as usual... Jackie is a highly regarded inspector in the HongKong Police Department... Lots of cases under him he solve before... Thats when Daniel Wu came in and break his record... Daniel Wu and four of his accomplice went to rob a bank... However, their main aim was to bring down the police department... All five are rich man's sons and daughter... During a gun fight, lots of police were hurt... Thats when Jackie decided to catch them, but when they entered the bad guy's hide out, all his members died during the raid... One of his members, is this brother-in-law, which is Charlie's Young brother... As all of them died, Jackie reprimanded himself and locked himself... He find it too hurt to go back to become a policeman as he felt that he cause all his members to die... Thats when Nicholas came in and pull him out of his sorrow for a revenge...

How Nicholas did it? You have to watch the show to find out... Overall, the show has loads of action, fights and of course comedy... The usual Jackie Chan's style... Lots of bombs and crashes... Adrenaline rushed when he complete all the stunts... Plus, all the stunts he did it himself, thats what make it so exciting and one single word, 'Unbelieveable'... From his age, he is 50 at least, but still, he risked his life to complete the stunt, that what really amaze me plus the audience, for his seriousness in his job, and complete devotion to action... A typical HongKong movie... From the ratings, three of of five popcorn... Recommended...

Talking about movie... Caught another one also... " The Ghost"... Will be written tomorrow on movies review... Ha...ha... Ah ma's recommendation...

Talk so much... Also time for me to put down my pen( Even though I was typing... Ha...ha...) While typing this blog, a music was playing behind my ear... A Jim Brickman song... Love him very much... His piano playing really musical to the ears... Hearing his songs make you relax... This song is a mixed of piano and saxophone... Nice music...

"You Never Know" by Jim Brickman and Boney James...

The Same As Before...

2004-09-24T03:40:00.000-07:00

Can't think of a proper title... Just want to write down what I was feeling... Was feeling the same as I was feeling yesterday...

Well, out of curiousity, I went to read my brother's blog... It was around 1+, taking a break from all the studying for the test tomorrow... Reading it hurts my heart badly... Suddenly found myself so lucky... Met someone that I really enjoy with... Everything works out fine... We enjoy each others company... Like always, hope that it will last forever... However, what will the future be, no one knows... Therefore, live a day like tomorrow... Cherish what are those around you... And apologises when you hurt someone, put down your pride... Thats what I always tell my friends... However, will it ever apply to me, I do not know...

On the way to lunch, just tell out my feelings to boi boi... Almost wanted to cry in front of him... Don't know why the feeling yesterday just hurt me badly... Even though me and my brother seldom talk or see face to face with each other... The brotherly sisterly love was strong... Find that I have never felt this way before... All in my heart, I just did not want him to get hurt... Just hope that this thing will never happen...

Remember in my younger days, we always quarrel with each other... From the smallest matter we also need to argue to feel the itch... As time goes by, the quarrel lessen... Maybe we both have grown-up, knowing that quarrel would never get to solve a problem, talking to each other will be the best way to solve the problem... Remember about the handphone matter, I argue with him in a fit of anger... Thinking back, it was my fault all along, apologises a million... Now, I just feel that we can go back to our younger days...

Reading his blog, he wrote he love me... I Love You To, Brother... You will always be the one I look up to... Forever you will be...

While writing this blog, was listening to this song... It is a cantonese song sang by Chris Wong... One of my family's all time favourite artist... The song that he wrote always full of meaning... Here is the lyrics... A song describing how a person wish the girl he love live happily ever after, live her life to the fullness... However, he hope that she will stay and remain at his side...

希望你快樂

無數次的掙扎
如台詞沒對白
無言默默在自我糟躂
過去仍沒法　任由抹煞

* 仍然我好想知道
前頭　有沒有路
如時間逐秒逐秒倒數
勉強亦沒有幸福

# 我希望你快樂
　我希望你好
我希望你找到想找到的
　值得你愛的
然後我希望你愛他
　我希望他愛你
我希望你日後　有個家
但我最希望你留下
Repeat * #

今天彼此都不再是十八
或廿二明白到甚麼叫做負責
錯了便認錯　不須畏懼罪名成立
與其令你難抉擇
不如由我來解答
讓你高興或許只有這方法
Repeat #

希望你留下
獨白：Wish you were here

Hurt... Seen... Yet There Is Nothing I Can Do...

2004-09-23T02:15:00.000-07:00

I was doing my homework... Preparing for my friday's test... Everything seems fine... Went to a movie with boi boi today... Watch "The Terminal"...

"The Terminal"
A romantic show... Tom Hank and Catherine Zeta-Jones as the main actors in the movie... Tom Hank is a foreigner visiting the U.S.A... While entering the country to New York, his visa was denied... His country, Kraskova, was overthrown... Therefore, without a new government and a leader, the U.S.A did not recognise his citizenship therefore his visa is denied... In the U.S, he did not belong to any country in the world... He is just a human... Fall in between, he was not allowed to leave the airport, and also not allowed to take an airplane back to his country... So, he was stuck in the terminal... The border between the U.S, and the other countries... Comedy happen in the movie, and also where he met Catherine Zeta-Jones... A movie highly recommended... To rate, 4 out of 5 popcorn...

Well, went to shop around before it is time for us to go back home... Went home early as boi boi was tired... Me too...

Back home... Was doing homework, went my brother click me on msn... At first, I did not recognise him, thought it was my friend... Looking closely, it was him... Well, he accidently click on my blog, saw and read it... Because of this, he let me read his... Well, that blog was meant for certain people to read, like my buddies and boi boi and of course him too... I just left my address at his comp, hope that he will read it so that I do not need to tell him certain stuff that I find it hard to convey to him... Well, finally he read it...

Anyway, read his blog, and my whole world came tumbling down... Never expect it to happen... They seems such a great couple together, and I always stand her as one of my sister, never thought it would happen... I found out quite a long time ago that something was wrong with him... However, I did not ask him... Even though I was concern, I just kept quiet, hope they can sort it out themselve... Well, went out with my mum one day, went she ask me suddenly what is wrong with him... Told me that he had brought an air ticket long time ago to Australia, but he cancel it last minute... In my heart, I thought like him always, he was always hot-tempered, never think before he act, and in a furious mood, he just cancel it... I told my mum, never to worry, they will sure be fine and back again before the Australia trip, but counting the days after she told me, which was 6 days, he still did not make any signal... Should have notice it earlier... What a wonderful useless sister I am... Well, after reading my blog, he wish me well with boi boi... Say that we look great together... Hope that I have made a right choice... After which, he just hint me... I told him what did mum told me honestly back to him... Don't want to keep this secret anymore...

After which, I just break down and cry... My heart just hurt badly... Even though he treat me strictly always, I have always love him... When such a thing happen, I felt at a lost... Don't know what I can do to encourage him or say to him... I just hope that he can recover himself... I will always stand behind him... No matter what... Like everyone say, "Time Can Heal Everything"... Let time be the one to heal all your wounds and scars, and be whole again... Well, a song of encouragement, the one that I always love to play in my piano...

"If We Hold On Together" by Diana Ross ....

A Sign of Relief... Finally...

2004-09-20T21:33:00.000-07:00

After so many days, I finally write my blog... Sorry to keep you guys waiting... I am just too busy to make up a time...

Well, finally, IBM concert is over... No more band practice till the semestral exams are over... At least I get a break... Anyway, really miss IBM concert... Enjoy myself very much... Seems to feel that time flies so fast that day... Hope that it will last longer but all seems to end in a flash... To my surprised, my buddies all appear at my concert plus my instructors... They all came to support me... Even though it was a small group, their appearance really boast up my moral... Especially my section Jansen came to support me... Thanks all for coming to my concert... Really Love You guys... (Even though I know you are all also curious to look at my boi boi also... See le... Should be satisfied liao...) Ha...ha...

Anyway, today is the 20th of the month, finally one month... He thinks it is too fast, whereas, i find it slow... Ha...ha... Contradiction... Well, really feel happy that I have met such a wonderful guy... Even though we are not in the relationship very long, he seems to understand me... Like the song heard on the radio, 'Pieces of Me' from Aslee Simpson... Her sister is a bimbo, at least this younger sister is smart... Well, she don't sing it well, but the song has a meaning that I find it describe what I am feeling at the moment...
He really make an effort to understand me better, and I find that when I am with him, no quarrels are needed as we both will give way... What I really appreciate was him making an appearance in front of my buddies and instructors... He did not need to did that but he seems to understand what i was feeling at that moment, and came down specially to let them have a good look at him... Plus, get to know my good buddies too during the supper at IBM... Really Thank You Very Much... Love YOU Lots...

Anyway, after the concert, curiousity overwhelmed me, so I decided to look at my ex blog... And to my expectations, he know already... Find it bad that I did not tell him, but i just couldn't find the right timing... Worried that it is too early... Anyway, talk to him in msn last night... Really felt great that he understand... Well, be friends should be the best... Anyway, really like you in the past, but everything just ended, maybe it was meant to be... Friends will be the best...

Well, here are the pictures from the IBM concert... Most is me and boi boi... But i did not get to take pictures with my buddies... Very sorry guys... Ha...ha... This year in sqs concert... I will bring my own cam... That time no escape... Ha...ha... Anyway, byebye and see you again soon... ( I have updated the blog... So stopped reminding me... Ha...ha...)

Me & Boi Boi at IBM concert

Me & Boi Boi

Me taken with his family

My section (Before concert)

My section with the aluminis

My section

After concert

Me & Boi Boi on escalator

The Holidays Are Here... Yeah??

2004-09-08T01:08:00.000-07:00

Sorry people... Only manage to write today... Last week till today is a hectic week... Having IBM camp and class outing... Really tiring... Only manage to sit down today and write my blog...

Reflections Of The Week

Well, projects again... They just keep piling and piling... Having lots of them... MIP, CPPA and CRS... All by next week... Sian diao... The whole holidays just projects projects... Meeting up with my group members on the next three days... For all... No break... AH!!!! Let me off...

Well, IBM concert is just around the corner(17th September), therefore IBM camp happens this week... The whole camp is 5 days 4 nights... Tiring... On monday night is the finale night... Congratulations to those who have won for the sections competition... All your efforts have not been wasted... Well, everyone should give a round of applause for all the effort they have put in in preparing the pieces... Even though some sections did not won the competition, this sections competition improves bond between members and everyone has gain a wonderful learning experience from this competition... Therefore, no lost for everyone...

On sunday, was my class outing... Went to Sentosa to enjoy the sun, sand and the sea... It was enjoyable especially those who love the beach and swimming... Lots of people were there even though the weather was bad... Have a short downpour, but everyone still continue on with their activities... Lots of dogs of course... Ha...ha... However, did not manage to spot a Welsh Corgi(Disappointment)... And as usual, lots of hot guys and beautiful girls... See till your eyes dropped nose bleed... Ha...ha... In the end, they will never be yours... Ha...ha...

Today, is Shuqun bbq... Went down with my two buddies... Lost our way in Singapore... Ha...ha... Took a one an a half hour bus ride to East Coast, in the end, lost our way... Ha...ha... Have to take cab to our destination... Thank you very much to my girl again for paying the taxi fare... "mUaCkS'...
Its been a long time since we have met up with each other... At least the bus-ride was not wasted... We spend that time catching up with each other... See everyone is fine, my mind is at ease... Anyway, took lots of photo that day... Make an exception today... Ha...ha... If someone is going to read my blog, he will kill me... Ha...ha... Too bad... I feel like it today... Ha...ha... Who ask you go back home and ZzZz... Ha...ha... Not forgetting, Thanks Mr Er and Sqs Band for inviting the alumini for the bbq... We did not pay any cash and still get to eat, really thanks for your accommodation... "mUaCkS"...

Well, thats all folks... See you again... When I have the time... "mUaCkS"...

Foursome...

Me & Zhuo Zhen

The Aluminis

Me & Dear Dear...

Chicken Wing Caught on Photo... Stupid Yao Zhong...

Saxophone Section

XYZ x 2

Lovers??

SQS Band Members...

jAY ChOu... Really Chou... Ha...ha...

Boi Boi...

Busy Busy Week...

2004-08-29T02:20:00.000-07:00

Have lots of test and quizzes this week... Really tiring... Hai~!!! Well, the usual, AE & E I am going to fail that paper and sit for a retest... The test was really difficult, plus I was sick on that day, can't attend that Ah Bu Neh Neh's lesson... Miss a lot... Among all, MIP was the easiest... Mrs Leong seems to have set it very easy, no no stress... Hope I will be able to score a better grade then the other papers...

As usual, news spread fast... Everybody knows who the new person is... Now just band to find out... Almost get caught yesterday by my seniors... That was really lucky... If not, today went back to band will be interrogation day... Everybody will start asking... Ha...ha... Well, apologises to my girl... Promise won't go back to sqs, yet I went back... Wanted to call you and tell you, but your line was busy... I guess you also sleeping bab... And you call me at the wrong time, I was having test...

Anyway, one week le... Time flies fast... Ha...ha... Well, hope time flies faster and it would be a year... Must broke that record... Ha...ha... Some how, almost manage but in the end fail... Ha...ha... So must aim for that...

Well, don't know what I am talking about, find out yourself... Ha...ha... Got to go... Nitez Nitez... "mUaCkS"...

Surprised Week...

2004-08-21T00:48:00.000-07:00

Ha...ha... Erm... As per promise... Will Write every saturday... Even though it is sunday morning liao le... Still can write...

Well, this week is a shocked... Don't know how to say, feel happy and surprised... First time somebody gave me flowers... Really very gan dong... Well, the surprise just overwhelmed me... Really caught shocked... And like the usual, always at the Esplanade... The place that I have fainted that gave the sadest memories yet now the BEST memories that I have... Well, can't tell you much... As I don't want that person to read my blog and guess it out... I want to see how super is that person... How well he can guess it out...

Thinking back about the past at Esplanade... Makes me remember of the incident again... Don't know what ran into me... Just became so crazy... Hai~!!!! It is over le... Stop thinking back and Look to the front... Nothings going to happen again...

Well, also the DCP day... The whole class effort really make up a wonderful performance... Even though got third, it is everybody's effort that we can make it this far... Well, and we get to enjoy our kfc vouncher... Not bad... Well, Great Job To All!!! Hope It Will Continue!!

Anyway, next saturday again... As per promise... See YOu!!!

Hectic...hectic...

2004-08-14T11:08:00.000-07:00

After such a long while, finally I am back... Its been a busy week for me... Trying to cope up with the projects and assignments coming along the way... Have lots of work... Finally able to take a break for today, however, starting from tomorrow, another busy day and week ahead... Projects piling up again, and more assignments... Never ending... Who say poly slack, worst than ever...

Reflecting about the whole week, wednesday, went for this thai band concert at the esplanade... The deepest inpression this week... The horn tone, totally blown the whole audience... It was really amazing... Hearing that will feel goosebumps... Can't imagine if Shuqun have such godness playing, WOW... The trombone, was also heart-melting... Being a trombonist, can't imagine how the players can get to run with pedal notes... Double WOW... The tone was also heart-melting... The whole concert was totally enjoyable... Really over-whelming... Hope to work hard and become one of them...

Anyway, that person irritate me again... Find being with him really irritates me... Really want to shoot him at the face... Yet, don't dare to do it... Hai... Not like me anymore... Don't know how to handle him... Just take him... Will be the best for both of us... Train patients... Ha...ha...

Well, went back shuqun today... Teaching was fun... Well, improvements in the sec 1... Really felt great, especially the Yi Heng, a fast learner, with his hardwork, will become the next Diana... Hope to train him to become better... The Jerryl also not bad, just lazy... Well, work hards guys... The next year SYF will be a great... The achievement feeling will be overwhelming... Strive harder guys..

Well, next week will be another exciting week, next sat again... Byebye... Ha...ha... ;-)

Happy National Day!!!

2004-08-10T10:01:00.000-07:00

Well, even though not really a loyal Singaporean, well at least wish Singapore a belated national day... We are now 39th years old... There is still a long way to come...

Anyway, went to my aunt's house and have a celebration fest... The usual, mine favourite salad is on the table, can't get enough of it, almost want to ta bao back home... Ha...ha... From my aunt's house can see the fireworks very clearly, and also the national flag flying across... Most important of course is the airplane... Ha...ha... After all, her house near Katong... Ha...ha... Just not at the national stadium... Ha...ha... Lame Lame Lame...

Well, spend the whole day with my family... Not bad a celebration... Even though most of time we are playing mahjong... I don't have the interest liao, so stick to the tv, and the bunch of lousy cousins... Ha...ha...

Erm... Went to the doc this morning, feel that I am not really improving... Instead getting worst... Don't know why... Hai~!!! Leave to fate...

Tired... Ha...ha...

2004-08-08T22:44:00.000-07:00

Well, nothing to do today... Just sleep slack, sleep slack and sleep and more slack... Ha...ha... Study here and there... Finally get to understand how to do... If not, sure die... Plus, want to do well in this two module... Decided to just pass the ah bu neh neh module le... Don't understand what he is talking... Can die ah... Walking sleeping pill... Ha...ha...

Anyway, pack my room... And surprising... Still as messy as ever... Ha...ha... Well, at least throw all the stuff that I don't want... Plus, manage to find back my duct(Don't know who to spell hor) board... Can hang people's face then throw at them... Ha...ha... Thats what my brother is doing...

Ha...ha... Misunderstanding... Thought she put airplane... But I say I not free... Bu Hao Yi Shi... Love you girl... Apologises a million... Ha...ha... "mUaCkS"!!!

Against My Will...

2004-08-08T00:22:00.000-07:00

Hai~!!! How should I say... I have trust that person too much... Really don't want to patch up, yet I did it for that person because I believe him... However, my heart really don't want... Just feel very confused... And feel myself very stupid and naive for trusting others whereas trusting myself who I really feel that it is right...

Should I trust him back again? He has hurt me even more deeply than my ex... Yet, I am not sure... Don't bother anymore... Just know once bitten twice shy... Believe in yourself as you know what you really one... Must remember!!! Important rule...

Anyway, enjoy myself today... Went to arcarde and play till siao... Waste lots of $$$ today... Ha...ha... Well, at least not so sorrowful as yesterday... Look to the brighter side of things... Plus, beings single is great... Been through before lots of times... Ha...ha... Don't worry ok... No More Pestering... As per promise... Ha...ha... Be friends... The best for both of us...

Newbie... A Sadful One..

2004-08-07T00:03:00.000-07:00

A newbie here creating my own blog... I find that everyone is doing it... Therefore got influenced, and did it... Ha...ha... Therefore, maybe I can post whatever I want over here...

Well, got a double K.O. The Xuanming Shen Zhang too powerful... Really hit me twice as hard... Should be K.O. to the power of 3... I did my test badly today... Trying to concentrate, yet I could not do it... Find it too tough... Thinking about yesterday... May seem to get over it... Yet the hit was too powerful... Putting up a brave front infront of everyone... Yet, still deeply hurt by yesterday... How should I say... I still miss "him"...

The truth is, experience really cannot count... I have been through lots of time, but this time, really hurt badly... I really want to save it... Yet, it cannot be done... And yet, I don't know why... Maybe fate has really want us to be this way... It is almost one year... Yet I ultimately spoil it... What a wonderful me... And because of this, I disappointed everyone... Including the ones closest to me... My bro just feel that I am not myself... Yet he still gave me encouragement to pull through... However, he feel that I did a choice that is hurtful to both side... Hai~!!! A cause of all problem... I HATE MYSELF... And I knew it by heart... Just too hurtful... Hai~!!!!

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